Need To Be.....

Study hard. Never been so serious when confronting my exam. I swear I never been so concentrating. I can stand for distraction and stay my mind calm and steady. I should be like this. I set a goal for my result, a very specific goal. I mean it. Thanks Alfred.

Be a good leader. I'm no longer a person that without responsibility. I have a goal in AIESEC. It's not an unrealistic goal. I just have to work a little bit harder, because right now is not only my concern, is a team with JEs. Time is too less for me to grab, don't waste any single moment in AIESEC. I proud to say that I AM AN AIESECer!!!!

Take care of my health. I know I have a weak body. I rest early lately. I eat on time. Without health my goal will just be a bullshit.

Be a good daughter. The one week sem break. Both of us talk like nobody is beside us. I promise no matter what happen I will always by your side. Everything has changed but I still will go back to stand for different faces and critics for you. I've tried my best to pull everything back, I tried. Tears don't pull back the sweetness. I learn to say I miss you before everything is too late.
I hate 'you' for being so irresponsible and so unsupportive. I really hate 'you'. But I still love you.
Every time I go back I need to withstand stress from externally and internally. I never feel so helpless in my life. Confronting alone is what I should stand for. It did make me become stronger and unintentionally making me no confident towards 'building up a family'.
Anyhow I know everything will go better.

Lastly, I met a person who 'scolded' me with a lot of insulting word. I met him for a discussing about GIP. Initially I was so sad for being insulted by him, but I didn't cancel the appointment and meet up with him. Even though what he said might be partially self-centered and over confident but he makes me realize what called as CORPORATE and LIFE.

-Compliment doesn't mean good, insulting doesn't mean bad. Learning goes on-

Between Mark Zuckerberg and Bill Gates Similar Facts

"TIME' has mentioned that co-founder of facebook Mark Zuckerberg was man of the year 2010, almost everyone in the IT's world know him as well and  Bill Gates (if you don't know at least B. Gates then maybe you should look for some professional health assistance). They both are almost have something similar in comman, especially in the IT.

They're both even Harvarrd Dropout

Here is a list of several similarities between Bill Gates and Mark Zuckerberg.

1. Both are very proficient software programmer.
2. Both are billionaires
3. Both founded the company at the very young age of 20+.
4. Both build fortune through the computer world. Gates built a new platform (DOS and Windows) and Zuckerberg are creating one now.
5. Both have stolen ideas for software applications or developments from others.
6. Zuckerberg and Gates are left out from Harvard University.
7. Zuckerberg and Gates are nerd.
8. Both are not really handsome.
9. Zuckerberg and Gates have been facing copyright issues and legal disputes.
10. The applications or software they built changed the IT world.
11. They are both identified as jerks in respect to their social life.
12. Both paid large sums of money to end lawsuits.
13. These individuals are of the type “love ‘em or hate ‘em”.
14. The two of them are quite intelligent and finished school with honors.
15. Both skipped classes at the university to work on their personal projects and later, to catch up with the rest of their classmates, had to do some ‘intensive burst study’ sessions.
16. Zuckerberg and Gates are famous amongst public opinion for being egoists, ruthless, opportunists, thiefs and devious. Also are suspect of using shrewdly predatory and unethical tactics against their counterparts.
17. Both get idea and drive by the opposite sex. Zuckerberg created the initial Facebook application to get laid with woman. Bill delivered himself a MAC application to hook up with a woman and at high school created a program to schedule students in classes, after that he modified the code so that he was placed in classes with mostly female students. Probably there is some true in “everything men do is to hook up woman”. Hahaha!
18. Both were very lucky at their business. A certain number of circumstances played to their favor.
19. Both come from upper-middle class families.
20. Microsoft invested 240 million of dollars on Facebook, making Zuckerberg and Gates business partners.
21. Both of them wrote their first computer programs while attending high school.
22. The two of them scored an almost perfect score on the SAT.

If you find more things in common between those two people, you can drop me a comment below. 

A looooong day

Mid term examination and assignments really make me unable to breath d.
Every night also midnight only fall asleep.
Just give me few days more I can back to home d.
I need a proper rest and personal time.
Really need it.
Inappropriate meal, insufficient sleeping time and rest.
My mum will kills me if she knows that I so late only fall asleep.
Sorry sorry :(

Yesterday night I really very exhausted, really.
Just finished a program for my dpp as a treasurer.
Nothing much to learn, deal with money, my favorite *wink*. hahahahaha
But then it wasn't that worst to mix with other races while I'm the only chinese.
Treat them politely actually they are quite nice also want.

And..
I feel sad for a while yesterday night.
I...
really trying so hard to do what I can do.
Friendship doesn't have any expectation.
Friendship doesn't have any judgement.
Trust me, believe me.
I know you've blocked me.
But I still want to say I am still here if you trust me.
I hope you can see this.
I didn't expect much.
If you still want to continue ignore me I'll accept.
Because is your choice.
But still, I am always here.

Still something for me to feel happy.
Thank you for what you've done for me.
Really.
I never expect you will give me such a surprise.
*ehemmmmmm*
Hehe~

Facebook Revolution in Egypt: Pictures and Cartoons Illustration

Egyptians, Inspired by Tunisia, use Facebook to set up protest as reported by TIME. As for social-network mobilization, observers say that Facebook is easier than word of mouth or cell-phone use for the government to monitor.

Here are some pictures and cartoons that illustrate the role of Facebook and other social media in the the biggest demonstrations in Egypt in years.

Soldiers with facebook's Shield  by WeAreAndSome

The illustration below shown there are three Arab leaders (Hosni Mubarak of Egypt, Muammar al-Gaddafi of Libya, and King Abdullah of Saudi Arabia) with protesting crowds in the background. Mubarak asks: “And you, how many foes do you have on Facebook?” by Swiss cartoonist  Patrick Chappate

 The Egyptian people fight President Mubarak with Facebook and Twitter, byBryan Arnold

 “Egypt has defriended you”, by Gary Clement.

Simple v Real Friendship

A simple friend identifies himself when he calls.
A real friend doesn't have to.
A simple friend opens a conversation with a full news bulletin on his life.
A real friend says, "What's new with you?"
A simple friend thinks the problems you whine about are recent.
A real friend says, "You've been whining about the same thing for 14 years. Get off your duff and do something about it."
A simple friend has never seen you cry.
A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.
A simple friend doesn't know your parents' first names.
A real friend has their phone numbers in his address book.
A simple friend brings a bottle of wine to your party.
A real friend comes early to help you cook and stays late to help you clean.

A simple friend hates it when you call after he has gone to bed.
A real friend asks you why you took so long to call.
A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems.
A real friend seeks to help you with your problems.
A simple friend wonders about your romantic history.
A real friend could blackmail you with it.
A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest.
A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself.
A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument.
A real friend knows that it's not a friendship until after you've had a fight.
A simple friend expects you to always be there for them.
A real friend expects to always be there for you!

What's is the next in my life?

Where to move?
Where will I go?
A sentence from my best friend :"Don't move so far can?"
I feel a thousand of unwillingness to move away from where I belong for nearly 12years.
Why don't just stay together...
How long I need to confront all this by myself.
I can't comment, can't object, can't do anything.
I just can wait for the moment to arrive and to be placed at somewhere where I don't wish to.
I don't want to hide my feeling anymore...............
Hug me and let me cry,cry and cry.........................

True Friends

People today, in all this new world technology and thinking, have lost sight of what a true friendship is. So, in sprit of my best friend Tellie, I thought I would help the world out a little and explain what real, true friends are.
1. Friends don't have to be exactly the same. Friends have similarities but they also have their differences. They key to opening up the world of friendship is not only to expand on similarities but to accept each other's faults. Because you can't ever judge your friend.
2. Friends have to argue! No one likes to but it is necessary to be healthy. Cause if you agree on everything, either the government has expanded cloning subjects or someone isn't being true and is trying a little too hard.
3. You have to be comfortable together or else you just aren't going to click. If you feel edgy around the person then something isn't quite right.
4. Friends love unconditionally. They have there little angry moments but what's done is done and all is forgive and forget. Why let something that happened in the past ruin what happiness you could have in the future?
5. Believe in love at first sight because there is the equivalent in friendship. Some people think that you have to know someone really well to become good friends. Trust me, it's not true. If the first time you really spend time together you talk for 25 hours straight until 4:30 in the morning about some topic you thought no one else in the world understood, hun, that's real love at first sight.
These are only a few of the basics. Just remember, friends are forever. But only if you keep it that way. Don't diss your buds, love them instead. And when they drive you nuts, love them that much more for being just a little bit different and maybe just a little bit quirky!

A Friend That's Always There

A Friend That's Always There

If I could catch a rainbow I would do it just for you And share with you it's beauty on the days you're feeling blue If I could build a mountain you could call your very own A place to find serenity A place to be alone........... If I could take your troubles I would toss them in the sea But all these things I'm finding are impossible for me I cannot build a mountain or catch a rainbow fair But let me be what I know best A friend that's always there.

You.Me.

Have a very packed weeks and mixing feeling lately. I wish to write again as a part of story in my life.

People
I met a lot of people lately. First of all I would like to say about marketing trip. We went to Jobsteet and 2 hotels. The person that we met is incredibly awesome and different and I really have a strong feeling after marketing trip. It's another motivational level to me. I am not preparing good for the marketing trip, As a promise to myself my next appointment at KL I won't make myself disappointed anymore when presenting to corporate.

I went for GCDP interns' farewell party. Yes, a touching moment for me when they shared their feeling. I hope for another journey in my life. A life changing experience. Can I? May be. hehe
Another intern, Thany for our GIP Program she came to UUM and pay a visit. She recorded a video for wildlife project. She was so spontaneous and ask us to be involving in the video and throw us some questions. She will bring back to Combodia as a video to promote her next project. Yes, the video is done! And this first time definitely boost up my another motivation. I saw the potential on her and frankly she is a best EP and AIESECer that shared a lot of her experiences with us. We just finished farewell with her and even though I just knew her 2 days but oh my god, why feeling so unwilling? She is an ALIEN! Do whatever that challenges her, a brave girl with ALIEN's thinking :)

Friends
Yes. You know what. Lately many friends come to me for their problem.Call me, find me, talk to me. I can really be their shoulder when they needed. I can be your side whenever you all need. The sad scene was when I need you are you be with me? I'm seeking for a true friend you know without utilizing each other. Perhaps it has but rare. I am glad you look for me, really. It shows that you trusted me and YES I trust you as well. Is it taking initiative always is what a friend should do? May be. Sometimes.

Listening friend's difficulties in relationship is not easy. We couldn't provide a solution for them because we are not the person who gone through it. Any advises need to be very careful but true words surely from me, I hope to see you seek for the Mr. Right. Whether he suits you or not? You decide at last. A question for you: Does he your Mr. Right.
Received an message from your bf. It's a little bit ridiculous when first saw the message as approaching me to ask about what is happening. You are unlucky because you met me. I'm not commenting anything for the relationship but I can't withstand a guy who approach with a wrong mindset. Please, you are not kids anymore. Anything please think of your future. Any actions taken reflect your intellectual level. May be love is blind. I really like the way of your loyalty, it's a good sign for a girl. If use it wisely you will be another great guy.

Myself
I have been stunned for few seconds when writing for myself.....Still stunning....
Is passing through a stressful moment for dealing with many stuff. I am ready to deal with it for sure, because I chose it and challenge accepted. Just sometimes I need to relieve, continue going, relieve and continue fighting. This is what life calls as. For how many times I take my mobile and text a long message but finally backspace those words. I talk to you because I really trust you, but you are not concerning about it. I'm not seeking for a perfect opinion, what I need just asupport.

Family
How refuse am I to back home previously but for so many weeks at here, I realized I cannot lose anyone of you. This time back home I promise myself I want stick with all of you as much as I can. I just have 3 days with you all. i don't want to let go and make myself regret anymore.  I able to console everyone beside me that facing problem, but I couldn't console my broken heart. I've reached a level when mentioning their name, when heard their voice, when saw their photo, my tears will be out of control. Cry doesn't mean I am weak but is how long I have endured for it. I miss you all so much....

Witnessing a relationship to grow is far behind that be part of it

Hope for better tomorrow

I went to LEAD conference.
Those speakers had the thought that drives me to think deeper.
They never teach us directly but it depends on us whether get the indirect meaning or not.
Yes.
I got it.
One of the quote that I really like:
If you're unhappy don't write in a letter.
If you're happy don' make any promises.

Yes, it is so true.
Write in an email as a draft and discard it, a way.
Promises bring disappointment,
I chose to be honest if I really can't make it as giving hope and spoiling others' hope isn't feeling that comfortable.
Behind the meaning, guiltiness is there.

I never expect people to understand my situation and I understand observer won't be able to help out or truly understand how hurt and how depress was it.
Is really okay for not being understanding.
Because only myself know how it feels.
It's a very subjective thing.
If I leave the place where I belong to,
What will be happening to me...
This year's birthday, the ever 21st birthday is becoming more meaningless to me.
I just hope for a better tomorrow.
What I can do is just stay even stronger and stronger.

-A 'new life' from you affected me more than everything-